From age 16 to 23 I wrote poetry, and in 2004 self published a book, 'Stranger In The Moving Chair' (still available to buy via the contact page of my website http://shilohmoore.wix.com/byshi ) The last poem in the book was the last poem I wrote. It closed a chapter to my life.
I wrote a few more poems 6 years later, but again stopped writing, and focused on artwork.
2 nights ago I felt I'd really like to write something again, and while lying down, I got out a pen and paper. I usually write free verse (not rhyming,) but I wanted to see if I could write something that rhymed. It poured out of me, and 20 minutes later this was what I had written:
“A Place That I Go”
© 2015 By Shiloh
Moore
17/11/15
(Age 35)
Despite constant pain
and
Despite all the
fears,
Despite the
frustration
And the many tears
Over all these years
I have slowly grown,
To accept, and know a
place
I can go on my own
Where fears are calmed
And inner peace
pervades…
Where I love my life
Despite the pain that
invades
I feel ‘held’ by hope
By strength, in
reflection
And am ultimately
moved
By a strong
connection:
Despite the isolation
And no ability to
travel
To see the sights nor
Be involved in person
Nor ‘contribute to
society’
On a monetary level
Or to live my life
To its full potential
I long for a life
partner
To share life and to intimately
know
And I grieve for our
children
Whom we’ll never
nurture as they grow
In my fantasies
I have the strength
and the power
To talk endlessly
with friends…
Or at least for more
than under an hour
Despite all this I
feel I belong
To this universe, and
to all humanity
Even in deafening
solitude
I feel innate purpose,
I feel free
I am grateful knowing
this place
Where I not only merely
exist
But live satisfied
with all I have -
This gives me
strength to persist
It's hard to imagine
Living this way
For the rest of my life...
Till I'm old and grey
So I live in this moment,
And block out the pain
I go to this place
Where deep down I'm ok.
The pain
overwhelmingly aches
But deep within my
soul
I know of this place,
where
Within this life, I
feel whole
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